Prompt #5

Yoga is something special, something beautiful and challenging, artistically and emotionally exhausting, yet completely soothing. My experience today was all of the above. With pure awareness, I thought yoga was lets say, easy, and I didn't realize that it is in fact the opposite until I was upside down, my back in a triangle and my untied hair sweeping the sweat off my mat and inundating my breaths and vision. When we stepped into lunges from downward dog, I was already exhausted and defeated. My mind was questioning: "why the hell would anybody want to do this?" Then I said: " Why the hell would anybody want to do this?" But when we stepped into warrior, I answered my own question (in silence of course). People do yoga to not only do yoga, but to find inner stability and inspiration. I, at some point in this pose, felt complete meditation. (Mind you I was in a pelvic open, legs spread, arms up type of position) I stared at my middle fingernail and calmness surrounded my being, however after about 10 seconds, I asked myself again the same original question. My legs were burning and my mind was too. I found myself staring at the clock instead of at my fingers, and my so called "meditation" was lost. It was then announced to lay back into child's pose, and then my original question, the "why the hell would anybody want to do this?" question, was re-answered.."aww, thats why" I said to myself. We then returned to Savasana, and my answer was even further reinforced. My most meditative state was in this position. The act of "not thinking" was, at first, a challenge, but after doing in several times, it has become much easier. I do think (or hope) that it will be the same from yoga. And like everything great, it will take time.