Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Honors Prompt #2

I had the strangest, yet most powerful experience today during meditation. I felt something so peculiar and to be honest, a bit creepy that sharing will be hard to do. I will try to explain: When I laid on my back with the blanket wrapped around my stomach, I was expecting to have my mind automatically flood with uncompleted tasks from the day and the day before that, and the day before that, but it didn't. The reasons why, I cannot explain without sounding like a insane being, but again, I will try. My thoughts heading into the meditation seemed altered than the days previous to today. I laid down with complete intention to meditate, relax, and spiritually unroll, and that my friends, is exactly what happened. I have no recollection of time or judgment, but at some point during the meditation, my energy shifted. It shifted so far that I felt as if I were sleeping, but so aware all at the same time. Usually in sleep, I have no conception of my surroundings, I cannot hear things, nor can I even notice that I am sleeping. When I am awake, I am aware and for the most part, attentive and conscience of my own being. The state I acquired today, however, was a complete mix of the two. I knew I was meditating and knew where I was and what I was doing, but I fell so deep into my being and into my own soul, that it felt like I was sleeping. It was almost, sort of in a way, an outer body experience. Now, I was not floating, transparent in the sky looking upon my self in my 12th grade English class, but I felt so one with myself that I also felt so unconnected at the same moment. It was, lets say, one of the most bizarre and completely illogical, yet completely sensual and natural and spiritual, as well as a spine tingling, hair raising and eye opening moment. All in one, I cannot explain why, how, who, what, when or where, but it was all that, and more.

1 comment:

  1. If this blog had a "like" function, like Facebook does, I would like this 10 million times! You offer such vivid description of something that can be so elusive and difficult to express. You have a talent for writing, and your experiences here are conveyed beautifully! Glad you got to "drop in" to restorative so much!

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