without any thought of results,
open to success or failure
......
Pitiful are those who, acting,
are attached to their action's fruits
(page 55)
I act with such intent, and I wish I didn't. With most decisions I make, either good or bad, I think of the results with full awareness of how my actions will effect me, effect others, and effect my life. I know I'm wrong to live life in the next breath instead of the one I'm breathing, but I cannot help it. I also know that it pitiful to be so absorbed by what is to come in stead of what is present. But what is there to do? How can I live in the moment, without being so attached to its results? In my innate senses I feel that laying too strongly on one option will become troublesome for my soul. So I must fine balance. I want to get out of the mind set that all I do must be magnificent, and that if it is not, I have failed. I have to let go of the extreme expectations I desire in order to eliminate utter disappointment. At the same time, however, I must embrace my knowledge of self expectation, and know that I can achieve greatness. I must embed in myself that not doing anything wont lead me anywhere. The balance is simple once I can see that all my accomplishments are rewarded on the process, not the results. Once I can make this my own, I will find that peace in myself that I deserve.
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